and I definitely feel like the medication is having the desired effect. I've been considerably less emotional, although a couple of times watching sweet or upsetting things on movies has brought an up-welling of emotion that surprised me, simply because I've rarely felt it this past three weeks.
Yesterday I was in the kitchen and I had a mini-revelation - "I actually feel ok" - again, a surprise because it's the first time in a fair while I've not felt completely shit. I feel much more stable than I was, more able to get on with day to day life and much less suppressed by dark clouds hanging over me.
This is good, right? Definitely. I'm still a touch concerned about what else might have been smoothed-over or ironed-out if the pills have done such a good job of balancing my mood, but I'm not going to fight it. To feel a little better about myself and the world in general makes anything else a small price to pay in the short term.
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