but it seems so far off at the moment.
To tell the truth I'm starting to struggle a bit with things not being in order, having a bedroom full of boxes of STUFF, and other people's very relaxed attitudes to communication and timekeeping. Do people not realise they're causing me stress when they don't call me back, or do things when they said they would? Grrrr. I'm trying to get carpet fitted as we currently have just dusty, cold concrete floor and until the carpet goes down I don't want to put everything in its place, set my pc up, desk, bed, cabinets, go out and buy wardrobes and storage because it'll all just have to be moved, dismantled and distrupted when it comes to lay the carpet.
Ack, I guess people just don't realise I like to know exactly what's going on, and when. Since I severely cut back on weed and alcohol I prefer order and control to chaos and freewheeling. When plans change I adapt quickly and move on, but if there aren't plans in place I find it very hard to settle. I am aware this is an issue and I'd like to work through it at some point because I remember using the word 'control' a lot during my therapy and noticing it's not always constructive to need control over the details.
I just had a price back for the carpetting. OMFG. I think I'm starting to struggle a bit now, maybe it's time to call for help.
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