Triggers

I noticed something else which might have triggered this recent short bout of depression: alcohol.

Along with the stresses involved with work, a lack of money from three days off due to snow and generally being quite tired, the consumption of two litres of shitty strong cider on Sunday seems to have pushed me into this low, or at least lubricated the entry of a lot of negativity into my mind. I felt crap on Monday but worked anyway, skipped work and an important solicitor's meeting on Tuesday and skipped work on Wednesday. The latter two days were spent compounding how rubbish I felt on Monday and I only really snapped out of it after walking up the hill to the house after work yesterday.

That alcohol has the power to mess me up like that shows me I should stay away from it, other than a small drink or in social situations. For example, when I noticed weed was making me terribly paranoid, stopped me concentrating and turned me into a cleaning freak, I stopped buying it and now only smoke very occasionally and usually in company. Now I've noticed alcohol has the power to revert me to a depressive mess, I should take similar action to ensure my mind isn't in danger of losing itself again.