Friday, January 23, 2009

Being kind to myself

After a lot of hard thinking and working things out this past fortnight, I've become
increasingly daunted by what needs to happen by the middle of April, just twelve weeks away now, to let the charity hitch-hike go ahead. I'm putting too much pressure on myself to get it done in such a short timeframe. While it would have been nice to do it this spring, I'm resigned to the fact that it's simply too much for us to achieve in such a short time.

Therefore I've decided to put the hitch-hike off until spring 2010.

In the meantime, I'll be working hard to establish the charity locally, and within the surrounding counties by the summer of 2009. I think it's important to get the charity up and running this spring, and start sowing the seeds of taking the project nationally, well before doing any kind of major publicity drive.

I'll be looking at some smaller-scale ideas for fund raising and applying for grants and funds from all the organisations I can to help run the charity. Moving the hitch-hike to 2010 is an attempt to take the pressure off and get the charity established so there's something tangible to publicise next year.

It was quite a realisation, how much pressure I was putting on myself, and the scale of my fear of failure. I've forced myself to focus on achieving my goal, been so determined to not let anyone see I've failed, that I've wound myself up into a ball of nervous energy at the thought of not succeeding.

So, by taking some of that pressure off and allowing myself more time to achieve my goals, I'm being kinder to myself.

And that's rather good.

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